It's late and I need to go to bed. Gotta get up at 6am tomorrow. So this is the shortest blog entry ever.
Sunday, August 24, 2014
Saturday, August 16, 2014
August 16th, 2014
I'm excited about the approach of Fall. Happy anticipation, that best describes it. The thoughts of
chilly nights, football Sundays and exploring all the weekend festivals I can drag my family along on put a smile on my face.
What makes it all the more sweeter is the fact that it'll be different this year.
It won't be like last year. This year Tracy will be with me, Tracy will be part of my entire weekend, not the few precious hours on Saturday and Sunday morning.
I won't have to pick up my cell phone to hear his voice. I won't have to drive
25 minutes to see his smile. I won't have to sit on the couch wishing he was there beside me. Tracy and I have our days back. Our Weekends together have been restored. It is simply a blessing from God.
Cassidy and Connor have their Father for the full weekend, they don't have to miss him and wonder when he'll be home. We are a weekend family again. That is something to be treasured.
That is a gift, I never want to take for granted.
So... we'll sleep in, go to church, walk around the neighborhood, clean out the garage, go to dinner, and explore the city.
Some days we'll just be together and that will be more than enough.
I'm excited about the approach of Fall. Happy anticipation, that best describes it. The thoughts of
chilly nights, football Sundays and exploring all the weekend festivals I can drag my family along on put a smile on my face.
What makes it all the more sweeter is the fact that it'll be different this year.
It won't be like last year. This year Tracy will be with me, Tracy will be part of my entire weekend, not the few precious hours on Saturday and Sunday morning.
I won't have to pick up my cell phone to hear his voice. I won't have to drive
25 minutes to see his smile. I won't have to sit on the couch wishing he was there beside me. Tracy and I have our days back. Our Weekends together have been restored. It is simply a blessing from God.
Cassidy and Connor have their Father for the full weekend, they don't have to miss him and wonder when he'll be home. We are a weekend family again. That is something to be treasured.
That is a gift, I never want to take for granted.
So... we'll sleep in, go to church, walk around the neighborhood, clean out the garage, go to dinner, and explore the city.
Some days we'll just be together and that will be more than enough.
Tuesday, August 12, 2014
August 12, 2014
The two men in my life got good news today. Tracy begins his next chapter and so does my little Connor. Tracy is making the transition from workaday broadcast journalist to Instructor of Journalism at Savannah State University.
He has been wanting to make the jump out of TV news for a long time, God has said yes at last. I'm so thrilled to see him begin this new journey, I'm feel so blessed to be a part of it.
Our Connor has been excepted into the gifted program at his school. That signals a new chapter for him as well.
He has proof positive that he can go above and beyond that he can achieve whatever he chooses to reach for. Now it's up to Tracy and I to help him run the race set before him, to encourage him to set the bar high for himself and to go for it with everything in himself.
These are the most important men in my life. I pray that God will give me the wisdom and strength to excel in whatever is put before them.
I'm so proud of my men, God bless them both.
The two men in my life got good news today. Tracy begins his next chapter and so does my little Connor. Tracy is making the transition from workaday broadcast journalist to Instructor of Journalism at Savannah State University.
He has been wanting to make the jump out of TV news for a long time, God has said yes at last. I'm so thrilled to see him begin this new journey, I'm feel so blessed to be a part of it.
Our Connor has been excepted into the gifted program at his school. That signals a new chapter for him as well.
He has proof positive that he can go above and beyond that he can achieve whatever he chooses to reach for. Now it's up to Tracy and I to help him run the race set before him, to encourage him to set the bar high for himself and to go for it with everything in himself.
These are the most important men in my life. I pray that God will give me the wisdom and strength to excel in whatever is put before them.
I'm so proud of my men, God bless them both.
Sunday, August 10, 2014
August 9th 2014
Today is the day I stop doing things simply for the purpose of getting a pat on the head from the world.
I'm done with wondering how I look, sound, and measure up to others.
My life is not a play on display for the audience's stamp of approval. I have hopes and dreams and aspirations that God placed in my heart, head and soul. Those are there for a reason.
I need to mine that, dig into it, open it up to the sunlight. What do I want?? Where do I want to go? What's next four me?
It doesn't matter if I go alone, It doesn't matter if the world doesn't approve, or is not amused or thinks It's not good enough.
I need to do it, if God put in in my heart I need to do it. I need to do it to please him and to please myself.
I'm sorry for the years wasted trying to show others that I'm just like them or good enough.
I am good enough, but I'm not just like anybody, nor do I want to be, anymore.
So I'm done with that and ready for what God has for me. I'm ready to go on the adventure he chose for me. It's just me and God, and that's all that's needed. He gave me a love for writing, I need to turn it into a talent.
He gave me a love for photography, I need to turn it into art. He gave me a love for life, I need to dive in, explore, step out, enjoy.
I need to sweat, strain, work hard, struggle and keep on even when I want to go find something comfortable to hide myself in.
I want something good for me, but I can't be afraid to work for it. I can't be afraid to sweat for it. I can't be afraid that the world won't think it's good enough. I can't be afraid.
When I've created something, when I've accomplished that feat, I must know that IT IS GOOD.
Not because someone else gave it a blue ribbon, but because God planted the seed and gave me everything I needed to make it grow and flower. It is good because I enjoy it. I work for myself, and for God, his approval, and my approval is all that is required.
I'm ready, He is with me, That is all I need.
Today is the day I stop doing things simply for the purpose of getting a pat on the head from the world.
I'm done with wondering how I look, sound, and measure up to others.
My life is not a play on display for the audience's stamp of approval. I have hopes and dreams and aspirations that God placed in my heart, head and soul. Those are there for a reason.
I need to mine that, dig into it, open it up to the sunlight. What do I want?? Where do I want to go? What's next four me?
It doesn't matter if I go alone, It doesn't matter if the world doesn't approve, or is not amused or thinks It's not good enough.
I need to do it, if God put in in my heart I need to do it. I need to do it to please him and to please myself.
I'm sorry for the years wasted trying to show others that I'm just like them or good enough.
I am good enough, but I'm not just like anybody, nor do I want to be, anymore.
So I'm done with that and ready for what God has for me. I'm ready to go on the adventure he chose for me. It's just me and God, and that's all that's needed. He gave me a love for writing, I need to turn it into a talent.
He gave me a love for photography, I need to turn it into art. He gave me a love for life, I need to dive in, explore, step out, enjoy.
I need to sweat, strain, work hard, struggle and keep on even when I want to go find something comfortable to hide myself in.
I want something good for me, but I can't be afraid to work for it. I can't be afraid to sweat for it. I can't be afraid that the world won't think it's good enough. I can't be afraid.
When I've created something, when I've accomplished that feat, I must know that IT IS GOOD.
Not because someone else gave it a blue ribbon, but because God planted the seed and gave me everything I needed to make it grow and flower. It is good because I enjoy it. I work for myself, and for God, his approval, and my approval is all that is required.
I'm ready, He is with me, That is all I need.
August 10, 2014
"Ask God for your miracle and keep asking, then see what happens." It was part of Pastor Ernie's message today.
Like all his messages, I needed to hear it. He reminded me of just how big God really is. He reminded me that God created the universe and that the creator of the world can surely handle my little miracle, my urgent need, my hopes and dreams.
Ernie recited the bible verse where Jesus says "Ask and it shall be given, seek and ye shall find, knock and the door shall be open."
It's one of my favorites but not always for the right reasons.
That verse appealed to me because is sounds so much like an invitation the owner of a candy story might give to a wide eyed kid. "Come and get it, have whatever you want."
I'm learning God is not a cosmic candy store owner, offering me anything my eyes and stomach delights in.
The "asking, seeking and knocking" is prayer, that's where I talk to God. I can ask him for things, a better paying job, a house, the right mate, good health. I can ask for guidance, wisdom, strength and faith.
But it's not always about asking for something.
Prayer, I'm learning, is about being in the presence of God, building a relationship with him. It's about coming to him to say" What do you want to say to me Father?"
Today Pastor Ernie reminded me that God wants to spend time with me, just like earthly Fathers want to spend time with their children, so God wants me to stop by for a chat.
Just as I want to spend time with the people I love, so God, who loves me, wants time with me.
He doesn't want me to constantly show up with a "I gotta have this now" list.
God wants me to seek his presence, to sit before his throne with an open heart. looking for him to fill it.
God wants me to come with the question "What do you want to say to me Father?" God wants me to listen as he speaks to my heart.
Now back to the "Ask, seek, and knock verse".
Jesus says in order for the asking, seeking and knocking to get results, there is something I must do.
According to Jesus, I must "adide" in him and his word must "abide" in me. Then and only then does the asking, seeking and knocking lead to the giving, finding , and opening.
That means I must stay in relationship, or abide, with Jesus and his word must stay in me.
Put another way, I am to continually study the word and develop a relationship with God.
Then when I go to him in prayer with my needs or just my desire to hear what he wants of me, we are not strangers.
I am learning that I have to make time to sit in God's presence and talk to him, in other words I have to make time to pray.
He is my Father, and I'm his child, family makes time for family.
Spending time with someone is the best way to get to know him. Spending time with God is the best way to get to know him. If I do it consistently, It means I'm also spending time in his word.
"If you abide in me, and my word abide in you, ye shall ask what ye will and it shall be done unto you." That's what the Bible says.
When I get to know God through his word and through talking to him, he speaks to me and tells me what he wants me to know. This is how I grow
as a Christ follower, this is how I mature, how I know how to live in this world. This is what gives me the wisdom to ask for the right thing when I pray.
He is not the Cosmic candy store owner, and I'm not the greedy child. He is my Father and he wants to hear what I have to say to him, but more importantly, I want to hear what he has to say to me.
"Ask God for your miracle and keep asking, then see what happens." It was part of Pastor Ernie's message today.
Like all his messages, I needed to hear it. He reminded me of just how big God really is. He reminded me that God created the universe and that the creator of the world can surely handle my little miracle, my urgent need, my hopes and dreams.
Ernie recited the bible verse where Jesus says "Ask and it shall be given, seek and ye shall find, knock and the door shall be open."
It's one of my favorites but not always for the right reasons.
That verse appealed to me because is sounds so much like an invitation the owner of a candy story might give to a wide eyed kid. "Come and get it, have whatever you want."
I'm learning God is not a cosmic candy store owner, offering me anything my eyes and stomach delights in.
The "asking, seeking and knocking" is prayer, that's where I talk to God. I can ask him for things, a better paying job, a house, the right mate, good health. I can ask for guidance, wisdom, strength and faith.
But it's not always about asking for something.
Prayer, I'm learning, is about being in the presence of God, building a relationship with him. It's about coming to him to say" What do you want to say to me Father?"
Today Pastor Ernie reminded me that God wants to spend time with me, just like earthly Fathers want to spend time with their children, so God wants me to stop by for a chat.
Just as I want to spend time with the people I love, so God, who loves me, wants time with me.
He doesn't want me to constantly show up with a "I gotta have this now" list.
God wants me to seek his presence, to sit before his throne with an open heart. looking for him to fill it.
God wants me to come with the question "What do you want to say to me Father?" God wants me to listen as he speaks to my heart.
Now back to the "Ask, seek, and knock verse".
Jesus says in order for the asking, seeking and knocking to get results, there is something I must do.
According to Jesus, I must "adide" in him and his word must "abide" in me. Then and only then does the asking, seeking and knocking lead to the giving, finding , and opening.
That means I must stay in relationship, or abide, with Jesus and his word must stay in me.
Put another way, I am to continually study the word and develop a relationship with God.
Then when I go to him in prayer with my needs or just my desire to hear what he wants of me, we are not strangers.
I am learning that I have to make time to sit in God's presence and talk to him, in other words I have to make time to pray.
He is my Father, and I'm his child, family makes time for family.
Spending time with someone is the best way to get to know him. Spending time with God is the best way to get to know him. If I do it consistently, It means I'm also spending time in his word.
"If you abide in me, and my word abide in you, ye shall ask what ye will and it shall be done unto you." That's what the Bible says.
When I get to know God through his word and through talking to him, he speaks to me and tells me what he wants me to know. This is how I grow
as a Christ follower, this is how I mature, how I know how to live in this world. This is what gives me the wisdom to ask for the right thing when I pray.
He is not the Cosmic candy store owner, and I'm not the greedy child. He is my Father and he wants to hear what I have to say to him, but more importantly, I want to hear what he has to say to me.
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