What possessed me to do it?  What propelled me to walk into my boss's office, close the door, and in effect, quit my job?
"I can't do this...
"But I have to do this" The voices in my head debated about it all morning.  My faith  was in an epic wrestling match with my sense of self preservation and fear. Faith won out.  I had been at WSAV for three years, I produced the 5pm Newscast. When I started I was scared silly, I felt like a child with a paint brush and an empty canvas who is told to paint a masterpiece.  My job was to paint one every day.   
So I painted, I put words on my computer screen. Just the facts, give them the facts, nothing fancy.  I wrote the news of the day The shootings, the bank robberies, what City Council did that day. I wrote about every aspect of Savannah that our cameras captured. 
In my mind I wasn't just writing, I was talking to people about people.  I was telling Savannah's stories.  
That's  was how I did it. That's what kept it interesting. I was creating something new every day.
 Now three years later, I feel like I've hit the ceiling at WSAV.
I can go no further there, nor do I want to.
Television news writing puts you in a box, there are restrictions, rules, lines you can't cross. I'm ready to cross some lines, I'm ready to get out of the box.   So, I talked about it with God. I said I'm ready for something else. what do you have for me?  Two days later my boss called me into this office to offer me another contract. "We'd like you to stay on another year, just sign on the dotted line."
That small voice, you know is Wisdom, whispered,  "you don't want that. "
So I didn't. so I quit. Now I'm looking, hunting for the door with my name on it.  I'm searching for my next chapter.  I'm filled with an anticipation that makes me smile.  I feel like I am on the brink of something very good, it's a feeling I haven't had in a long, long time.
I may have to leave WSAV before I find my next challenge.   If they hire my replacement before I get out the door, I'll pack up and leave without a place to go to. That doesn't bother me. 

I'm okay with that. I'm ready for the next big thing in my life. It's out there waiting for me to come claim it.